I'm struggling a bit
I try to be positive, do the best I can for my recovery. But I miss my good routine. I miss sleeping more comfortably. And sometimes I just feel lonely because I have less time to spend on my hobbies now. So there is more time "left" that I need to "get through", if that makes sense 🤔.
I don't want to feel alone. I don't want to think that people are bored with me and my silly toots, done with my complaints about missing my normal things and all that.
I guess the lack of routine, the lack of sleep, and the struggle with pain now, makes me more anxious, and that feeds my depression that's always lurking in a dark corner.
I hope that I'll feel better soon... Sorry if I've been "annoying". 😔
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Hollie
in reply to Pixy's Journey • • •You haven't been annoying! And you aren't alone! 💜 I don't think I know all of what's going on but I sure can relate to feeling afraid that I'm alone in illness distress and that no one wants to hear from me.
And when I ask, they always do, and I'm sure everyone wants to hear from you too! I do! :)
Pixy's Journey
in reply to Hollie • • •@hollie
Fankoos 🫶🏻 I just get so insecure when I don't have the spoons to fight off my depression and anxiety. I always feel that I am doing things wrong, or asking too much attention in the wrong ways...
I've had a hip surgery ten days ago, and it's been OK enough, with some hiccups here and there.
I knew there would come a point where I'd feel so alone and broken, that my darkness would try and grab me. 😔 Trying to reach out to push that dark monster back in its corner.
Thanks ever so much 💜
Hollie
in reply to Pixy's Journey • • •Ahhh, okay! I'm so sorry about the hiccups! 💜
Recovery can be lonely, I'm glad you're trying to reach out. That's so good!
Pixy's Journey
in reply to Hollie • • •@hollie
Fankoos 🫶🏻 dear! Yeah going back to the hospital with the "infection scare" really knocked the wind out of my sails 😔
Thanks again! Yeah I felt so alone and a nuisance at the same time. Thank you for replying. That meant a lot. 💜
DB Schwein
in reply to Pixy's Journey • • •Not annoying.
Not alone.
We're here for you, even if we're thousands of miles away. We're making the best of these digital relationships, and helping people through sickness (whether physical, mental, or spiritual) is one of the things we seem to excel at.
Tell your brain to push off with that nonsense. Would you let it talk to Arwen that way?
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Pixy's Journey
in reply to DB Schwein • • •I'm just very low on spoons, and the depression and anxiety are making me feel lonely and insecure. 😔
Thank you for your kind words!
And no, my brain would be way kinder to Arwen. But it's loving Arwen more than it's loving me at the moment.
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Pixy's Journey
Unknown parent • • •Haha well, that cat could do a better job than some of the nurses that tried to butcher my veins the last few days 🫣
Pixy's Journey
Unknown parent • • •Fankoos 🫶🏻
Am just very low on spoons, making me anxious and it makes fighting the dark monster harder, so I really feel alone and insecure right now.
Thanks for the kind words! 💜
Pixy's Journey
Unknown parent • • •That's beautiful! 🧡🤎🧡
Pixy's Journey
Unknown parent • • •Smakelijk eten! 😉 Which is Dutch for enjoy your meal. 😊
Pixy's Journey
Unknown parent • • •Yeah that's me now, trying to find some spoons that I really need so badly...
Mike 🇬🇧 🇪🇺
in reply to Pixy's Journey • • •I've just seen this toot because it was boosted by someone else.
I've looked at your Timeline and you don't seem boring or annoying (and - bonus - I'll follow you as well).
You sound as though you're in a similar situation to that which my daughter has been in over the last few years.
She has severe depression, anxiety and chronic pain. The root of it all is PTSD. She has bad days and very bad days, but there's always a light burning at the end of those times.
Remember - it DOES get better.
(And if you really want someone boring - read my toots!)
Pixy's Journey
in reply to Mike 🇬🇧 🇪🇺 • • •Fankoos 🫶🏻 for the reply and follow! I followed back. 😊
I've been struggling more due to changes in my usually helpful routine. I had hip surgery ten days ago, and that meant many restrictions and changes (for several weeks to come).
I sleep badly, I struggle with discomfort, and am very low on spoons. I can't really fight off the depression and anxiety, which make me feel lonely and insecure. 😔
I really appreciate your reply and follow 💜
Mike 🇬🇧 🇪🇺
in reply to Pixy's Journey • • •I had severe clinical depression a number of years ago.
There are no easy answers and no quick fixes.
Every one of us is different (and that's a good thing) so the way we approach our own issues is a personal thing.
Pain, lack of sleep, and changes to a routine can't be helping you.
Boring - for you, at this point in time - might be a very good option!
Be gentle with yourself, and remember this will pass (but it may take time).
Pixy's Journey
in reply to Mike 🇬🇧 🇪🇺 • • •Sorry to read that, that's a hard battle to fight. 😔
And nope, when it comes to depression and anxiety, it's never an easy answer or solution, unfortunately...
I think I can get through this. But my spoons were low, and I just felt like I was a nuisance and annoying person.
And yeah, I know the feeling is recovery requires me to be more e boring. But the AuDHD part of me doesn't do the boring bit too well. 😔
Fankoos 🫶🏻 I'll do my best... Just was hitting a low point last night. 💜
DEI Dungeon Explorers
in reply to Pixy's Journey • • •Pixy's Journey
in reply to DEI Dungeon Explorers • • •That's beautiful, thank you for sharing 🧡🤎🧡
Kevin Davy
in reply to Pixy's Journey • • •Pixy's Journey
in reply to Kevin Davy • • •Fankoos 🫶🏻 dear 🤗
MJ Muse
in reply to Pixy's Journey • • •Pixy's Journey
in reply to MJ Muse • • •Fankoos 🫶🏻 yeah... I was hitting a low point and it got too much for me to handle on my own. 😔
MJ Muse
in reply to Pixy's Journey • • •Pixy's Journey
in reply to MJ Muse • • •Sometimes it does... Sometimes I "need" something "stronger", like good people that let you know that you matter... 😊
Cazimodo Creative
in reply to Pixy's Journey • • •Pixy's Journey
in reply to Cazimodo Creative • • •Awww fankoos 💜
it's just when I am low on spoons, then I start to doubt loads of things, myself mostly. I wonder if people are tired of me, if they jus reply to be polite and not because they really care... The dark side in me is always lurking, waiting for the spoons to run out, so that I am more vulnerable. And last night, I just felt like I was an annoying nuisance, which made me feel lonely and insecure.
Thanks for reaching out!