#Journal of a highly stressed Dutch Pixy (Tuesday, 07/10/2025).

I woke up from a decent enough night. The scale was being it's usual self. I got dressed, took my meds, and got ready to head to the gym.

I enjoyed my protein shake, checked social media, and then I got to the treadmill for 15 minutes. I followed it with a leg exercise and an arm exercise. After a massage in the chair, I got ready to head back home again.

Back home, I crashed on the couch. I wrote my journal Toot and just felt bläh. I managed to work on my blog a little. I tried to relax a bit too. I felt disappointed in myself again for not being able to "be my usual active self". I miss being that person, that enjoys exercise and feels better because of it...

Together with some AI help, I started making a new routine schedule that's focused on my needs, but also on what my body now needs to recover from the burnout. I know AI makes mistakes. But with the brain fog 😶‍🌫️ that I was experiencing, I was just so stuck. With it's help, I was able to take some steps that were too hard for me now, and from there... I was able to adjust it all and... I felt good when I got it finished! 😄

I finished my blog post for Wednesday, about autism burnout, including the schedule at the end. And then I had my brekky. After some more relaxing, I got to the treadmill. While walking, bestie called on her way to work. I managed to get a 45min/3k walk in, and that felt good. Yay me!

After the walk and call, I got to the shower and even managed to get myself feeling a bit better after that. So, even though it was a tough start, I felt like I was actually doing rather well. 😊 The noise from the construction 🚧 work was awful, as they were taking out the paving stones in front of the house...

I relaxed some more, as much as the noise allowed, even tried two minutes of box breathing... Then I had some food, and got ready to head to Cuijk. Unfortunately I got stuck behind a truck in the last 8km of the journey and well, it was doing 64 in an 80 zone... No way to overtake it so... Grumble grumble...

I got to Lidl, got the stuff I needed, put them in the cool box and headed to the physio. I was too early, but the one who had the current time slot wasn't coming, so... I got in and was done earlier. Yay. 😊

Got back home, had some food, finished a blog post and then... The wait began! The repair person would come between 13:30-17. Well, aroujd 17:30 I had enough! I filled out a complaint form, as they weren't reachable by phone (only till 16:30... 🤔) because I was just so triggered! I had gotten a text at 16:08 saying the person was on their way. No idea where from... No idea what the estimated time was. So after waiting half an hour longer, as autistic me is done when no one shows up within the promised time frame....

I was triggered. Anxious. Tired. Angry. Frustrated. And then, at 17:45, someone showed up! Unfortunately, all these emotions just came out... Poor guy! I felt a bad about it... 😢 And in the end... Yeah, someone needs to come and check for leaks... Well, 🤔 I thought that's what he came to do! I told them that in less than 3 days, the pressure was back to 0. So even I figured that there must be a leak! According to the guy, it happens occasionally... Yay, just my luck... 😔 I would be contacted about someone coming to check for leaks... He apologized for being late and I apologized for my breakdown on him....

I was so sad and frustrated... I got ready for bed. It took a while before I dozed off. When I woke up, I was feeling so cold! I turned on the electric blankie and before I knew it... I dozed off happily. But... Of course the blankie was still on. So I woke up again all warm, too warm... Turned it off and the slept until a few minutes before the alarm was set to go off. I got almost 6 hours of sleep and I felt like it wasn't too bad.

The scale wasn't too bad, and I got dressed and started my "day".

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