Damn it is so hard to even make a website about webdesign, to "sell" myself. I am thinking how hard is it to make websites for others. I manage over 30 websites and work on a 6h documentary, I wrote thousands of pages of books, and so forth. But that's all done because I wanted to do them and I find value in them. I do not trade them. I make them for their value. But now I have to do stuff in return for food, electricity, and so forth. This society is so primitive. If from the 2nd day I feel annoyed....how am I gonna do this?! :D

I will take a break and try to push myself later on. I want do be done with this webdesign website, then I need to contact a bunch of random "businesses" to make websites for them. Likely I won't find any. But then I have to try 2 more things: work in cleaning in the weekends for the summer, and work for an "IT" company if I can and am accepted.

This society is disgusting. To be unable to focus on what you love doing, to not be able to survive unless you trade yourself. Wake up morons. The only reason you may not see the fuckery is because you got used to the smell of it. It is like shitting yourself and getting used with the smell.

Ok. I may rant a lot these following weeks/months but I need this else I can't continue in this society where I am forced/enslaved to do the things I do not want to do. At least I can still vent a bit here and there. #tromlive