Maybe from time to time is good to think about yourself as a terminally ill cancer patient who is going to die in a few years time. Just to make you rethink your priorities. Because in truth we all are terminally ill and in the process of dying. Fucking terrible thought to have, but it is true and we better get it so that we live our lives in a more meaningful way. A hard task to accomplish in this fucked up society...
At times I have these scary realizations that I am going to die one day, and I really don't like it. It usually happens to me when I am super tired, in bed, trying to sleep. Fucking brain!
But it is weird to think that you won't exist at one point....
I wish I could live forever. I would never get bored. There is so much to do.
In the meantime I am still young and healthy it seems, so it is also good not to spend your healthy time thinking about the fact that you are going to die one day. That is a waste of your time begin alive, if you do it too much.
Ok that's all.
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WhippoorwillSong
in reply to Tio • • •I was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer at the end of December.
Still relatively recent, and I'm still getting used to it. I don't think it's technically "terminal" until I have 6 months or less left to live.
Until it's terminal, I feel like I'm in a kind of a limbo. Like the very elderly, you don't know if it could end quickly, or in a couple more years...
Everything is more precious though. Little trivial things. The less you have, the more you value it, maybe. Loving life while I can.
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Tio
in reply to WhippoorwillSong • •I am very sorry to hear that and I hope you'll beat it and live for a very long life! It scares me to even think about such a situation, but perhaps when it happens to you, you'll just have to deal with it and see where it goes...
Cancer is still that scary disease everyone is afraid of. I hope some sort of vaccine that trains the immune system can bring some breakthrough.
Thank you for commenting and I hope you enjoy your life a fuck ton! Every little moment!
WhippoorwillSong
in reply to Tio • • •Thank you for the kind words.
I guess I'm learning, discovering slowly as I'm reacting to it all. It unrolls gradually over time. It's a process.
And yes, when it happens, I guess you just have to deal with it. It's like walking out the door and having a tree fall on you. What can you do? Not a thing.
The inevitability of dying is always there, though, like you said originally, whether we have a terminal illness or not, we're all dying.
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