For the past 2 weeks, at times I wake up, and I have a split second hope that the past days were a bad dream. And then I realize. And it sucks.

To be dumped in a long term relationship without warning, is already something that is so hard to get over. For some is impossible. But if you were already struggling mentally and physically, such event can really fuck you up. On top of this, if you also have to deal with family problems of similar kind, is just maybe too much.

I just wanted to vent.

But at times I feel like suffocating. The weather for sure does not help.

Will do my best to try and keep myself going, to release the TROM Articles project today or tomorrow, to get ready for the eclipse. At times I feel very much ok, at times (triggered by other events too) I fall deep into a black hole and I feel like there is no way out.

I can't sleep that much. That also influences my mood ofc.

Anyway. The past year has been the worst year in my life. Period.

I hope time is a clever motherfucker and can fix these, or some of these things. I am here buddy, waiting for you to do the magic ;).