These days I enrolled into an Open Water Dive course. Basically to "train" to become a diver. I like the idea, and ofc it is so interesting to see the underwater world. But I also distracted myself from what I wanted to do with the documentary after its release. The release did not bring much attention honestly. Very few if any sent any feedback or even shared the documentary. I can count them on a single hand. Even for my low expectations this was a disappointment. But I will try harder...

I still have to do one more dive before I will become certified but today it was a bad diving day and I felt stomach sick. 15-20 meters underwater, feeling heartburn and this feeling of weakness and sickness. Also knowing you are so deep and you can't just go up without some possible bad consequences...makes it a bit terrifying. I struggled to breath. I almost had a panic attack honestly - something I had almost daily until several years ago, because of stress and such. So I feel like my panic attacks can resurface if I am put under these sort of stresses. I think the situations that stress me the most nowadays are the ones where I know that if I make a tiny mistake I can kill myself. Like being close to the edge of a very tall cliff - that terrifies me. Or being underwater with pressurized air in my lungs. And so on.

Yeah so I almost did an emergency ascent. And after I finished the dive I still felt sick. Tomorrow should be my last dive but probably I will skip it. Anyway, it is a very interesting experience indeed and I hope Il'l finish it and dive more and more, but my stomach issues may interfere with my dive....so Iĺl have to think carefully about it.

So I'd like to go back and focus on the documentary again, because despite diving being cool, nothing makes me more engaged than un-layering the reality we live in. To me that's the most mind-blowing thing. The contrast of the human invented society (jobs, names, countries, money, labels, etc.) with the reality discovered through science (galaxies, atoms, creatures, planets, stars, etc.). That, to me, is the most interesting thing there is.

So yeah, I'll try to contact more people, finish an article about the "making of TROM II", and try to do a TROM-cast. It is sad that TROM is so invisible. I wish more people would watch the documentary because I think it is an amazing one for the simple fact that it is real and thus not subject to opinions. But it is like the scientists discovered that we live in a computer simulation and it is proven to be so, and I am here being mindblown by it and trying to tell people about it, while most humans are like "yeah, whatever". So then....even if this documentary does not reach many people at all....I mean...we still live in a computer simulation and that's shocking. Meaning, the things that we talk in the documentary are still shocking and important. Period.

In the end it is what it is. I and a few amazing friends are continuing to spread the word. What options do we have!? #tromstuff