I may take some radical decisions this year, such as removing some trom.tf services that are difficult to manage and also put a toll on the server, together with closing down the registrations for our Peertube. Matrix is a service that I consider shutting down, or at least close the registrations. It eats up a lot of the server power and I cannot deal with the bots there.

The monthly donations for TROM are so low that soon they won't even cover the server costs. So I cannot upgrade our servers to allow others to use our services. Our Nextcloud may also be limited...

On top of this I want to remove any other project or materials that are not relevant anymore.

Plus remove myself from the TROM-chats. This eats up my life....and for what!?

I am so tired....I want to do stuff and put them out there. I don't want to argue on chats about whateverthefuck, I don't want to make captions for a documentary that I work on for 3 years, I don't even help with that since I am already depleted of energy to work on this documentary. I don't want to deal with any subtitles for it or any video. Or translations and the like. I understand that these are important for some people, but I should not deal with any of these...

Basically I want to create stuff in my loneliness: documentaries, videos, books, etc.. And then have 1-2 people around who can help me a bit with the proofreading, review of the sources, and things like that. Then I'll make these available and open one single door: TROMcast. For anyone to be able to criticize the stuff that I release, since my goal is to present factual information. So that's how I see things now: Me creating stuff and sharing it on tromsite.com. Then do a TROMcast whenever a few people want to challenge any of the things presented in whatever I have released.

I want to have time to focus on my personal life. Go see some nature, some creatures, or just stay and relax and not manage 40 websites. I'd rather write more books than provide "yet another" instance of whatever....

I want to learn more about the world too...

Now that I finished the documentary maybe is time for me to sing off in many ways. Sometimes I have this strong feeling of shutting down my laptop and never open it. And just live. In the moment. Go climb some trees, go for a swim, or just stay and wonder about the universe and read some books about it.

Maybe I'll change my mind about some of these things, but for sure I am overwhelmed ... you try to write books, source them, proofread some that others write, design them, publish them, make podcasts about them; make documentaries, record, edit, make captions or check them, release, deal with the feedback; make a custom linux distro and provide technical support, update it, do releases, fix issues with packages, curate hundreds of apps....Or make a documentary website, find new titles, add them, make sure they have a trailer, make sure people can access them....Or provide some 25 instances via trom.tf....customize them, update the servers, backups, bla bla bla bla....and so on....

Ok I'll stop. But this life is not healthy for me.